Not being able to sleep is the worst. Especially when you're sick and just want to get well.
I've literally been laying in bed all night. I don't think I slept even ten minutes. My insomnia hasn't been this bad in a very long time. I really don't feel that bad except the nagging cough, but I still have a fever of 100.9.
I can't call in sick but I do think I will leave work early today.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
For The Record...
I may have touched on this topic before, but:
1. To grant no emotion at all to a person is far worse a thing to do to him than to hate him.
2. In that same regard, to make a person feel valueless is far worse a thing to do to him than to purposely hurt him.
3. That being said, if one refuses to feel devalued or valueless, then he actually holds the upper hand. So, how does one do this? Refer back to 1. Give no emotion back.
1. To grant no emotion at all to a person is far worse a thing to do to him than to hate him.
2. In that same regard, to make a person feel valueless is far worse a thing to do to him than to purposely hurt him.
3. That being said, if one refuses to feel devalued or valueless, then he actually holds the upper hand. So, how does one do this? Refer back to 1. Give no emotion back.
Untitled
Neither can I pen a word
Than I can touch your
Lovely face.
Disenchanted, I labor
Over the work at hand.
To speak your name
Is to acknowledge the
Existence of God.
Than I can touch your
Lovely face.
Disenchanted, I labor
Over the work at hand.
To speak your name
Is to acknowledge the
Existence of God.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Flight
In this case, I am referring to the flight reaction of a person, rather than actually taking flight.
Commitment Phobia is a bizarre phenomenon to those of us who are not phobic about commitment. A quick Google search brings up 495,000 hits. (Apparently this is a big problem. Ha!)
Wikipedia has this to say. "The commitmentphobic mind sees decisions as permanent, opening the possibility of being caged or trapped forever with no means of escape." Other sites seem to chalk it up to a handful of fears that cause the phobic to run away. Those include but aren't limited to fear of failure, fear of losing ones identity, fear of entrapment, fear of the unknown.
Here is a good article that talks about some of those fears.
And now for the obvious question: Why in the world am I blogging about fear of commitment?
The short answer is that I have a bit of a fear of commitment. I have been offered four promotions at work that I have turned down (fear of change and fear of failure coupled with a complete lack of desire), and after reading some of these articles, I might even be sabotaging my relationships (purposely choosing incompatible partners). HA!
The real answer is that I met the most commitment phobic person I have ever heard of. I mean, any story you have been told about this subject is the sad loser in a race against this person for who can flee the fastest from any kind of commitment (from taking a new job, to planning a date three days in advance). This is serious stuff.
Commitment Phobia is a bizarre phenomenon to those of us who are not phobic about commitment. A quick Google search brings up 495,000 hits. (Apparently this is a big problem. Ha!)
Wikipedia has this to say. "The commitmentphobic mind sees decisions as permanent, opening the possibility of being caged or trapped forever with no means of escape." Other sites seem to chalk it up to a handful of fears that cause the phobic to run away. Those include but aren't limited to fear of failure, fear of losing ones identity, fear of entrapment, fear of the unknown.
Here is a good article that talks about some of those fears.
And now for the obvious question: Why in the world am I blogging about fear of commitment?
The short answer is that I have a bit of a fear of commitment. I have been offered four promotions at work that I have turned down (fear of change and fear of failure coupled with a complete lack of desire), and after reading some of these articles, I might even be sabotaging my relationships (purposely choosing incompatible partners). HA!
The real answer is that I met the most commitment phobic person I have ever heard of. I mean, any story you have been told about this subject is the sad loser in a race against this person for who can flee the fastest from any kind of commitment (from taking a new job, to planning a date three days in advance). This is serious stuff.
Friday, February 22, 2008
The Occasional Oddity
Tonight was host to a magazine happy hour---I generally don't attend these but as of late, I have few excuses not to.
At these events, I always end up meeting some strange people. Tonight, I met an older gentleman who confessed to me that he has found his new passion in writing erotica. He had everyone at the table read his work. He was seeking advice, which I offered. I told him that if he wants to develop his writing skills, he needs to read more in his particular genre. HA! I mean, it's true, of course. It isn't every day that an editor or anyone else recommends people read erotica.
The other odd character I met was a young guy from Montana. He self-published a book of poetry and photography via AuthorHouse. This is the same "house" that "published" BOB. I felt kind of bad for judging him about it. I find it a bit sad that a person would be so desperate to get published that he would waste his own money doing it. Partly, my reaction to it was based on the fact that I found neither his poetry nor his photography particularly moving. The photography lacked intrigue which was only highlighted by the fact that it was poorly printed and in black and white.
Not so oddly, both these guys confessed their endorsements for Barack Obama.
At these events, I always end up meeting some strange people. Tonight, I met an older gentleman who confessed to me that he has found his new passion in writing erotica. He had everyone at the table read his work. He was seeking advice, which I offered. I told him that if he wants to develop his writing skills, he needs to read more in his particular genre. HA! I mean, it's true, of course. It isn't every day that an editor or anyone else recommends people read erotica.
The other odd character I met was a young guy from Montana. He self-published a book of poetry and photography via AuthorHouse. This is the same "house" that "published" BOB. I felt kind of bad for judging him about it. I find it a bit sad that a person would be so desperate to get published that he would waste his own money doing it. Partly, my reaction to it was based on the fact that I found neither his poetry nor his photography particularly moving. The photography lacked intrigue which was only highlighted by the fact that it was poorly printed and in black and white.
Not so oddly, both these guys confessed their endorsements for Barack Obama.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
More Acting
Once again, I have agreed to complete an acting leader stint. This time it will take place at Bridgeport.
I will admit I have a lot of reservations. First: the parking at that mall is a nightmare. Second, I don't want my services to be taken advantage of---namely, that I have to do all the sucky shifts.
For some reason, I have a lot more unsettled feelings. I have no idea why. I have no qualms with any of their staff. I can only venture to think that it is entirely to do with being out of the loop on anything that is going on...
I will admit I have a lot of reservations. First: the parking at that mall is a nightmare. Second, I don't want my services to be taken advantage of---namely, that I have to do all the sucky shifts.
For some reason, I have a lot more unsettled feelings. I have no idea why. I have no qualms with any of their staff. I can only venture to think that it is entirely to do with being out of the loop on anything that is going on...
Saturday, February 16, 2008
The Santiam Pass
Humbly blogging from Bend...
On short notice I decided to take a trip to Bend this weekend. I performed the usual rituals one must do this time of year and got up early to do trip checker on the ODOT website. Having discovered that Santiam was clear, I decided to take my usual route---I5 to 22 and then on to 20 at the junction at the top of the pass.
The trip was actually going pretty smoothly. There were a few patches of what looked like frost where the sun hadn't melted things, but mainly the roads were dry. This is why I found it a little odd that on the downslope, just after the summit, all traffic came to a standstill. Oddly, where my car ended up in the line, I had excellent cell service and so I called my mom to let her know I would be later than planned and not to worry. She then took the liberty of finding out what was holding up traffic.
Here is the answer. Just terrible. I was not too far away from the crash site so I was only stranded up there for about an hour. I've never seen so many delayed cars but the saddest part was that as I drove by, I could see the uninjured people sitting in the back of an open SUV, and they were smiling, even as a body lay covered in a tarp just a few yards away...
On short notice I decided to take a trip to Bend this weekend. I performed the usual rituals one must do this time of year and got up early to do trip checker on the ODOT website. Having discovered that Santiam was clear, I decided to take my usual route---I5 to 22 and then on to 20 at the junction at the top of the pass.
The trip was actually going pretty smoothly. There were a few patches of what looked like frost where the sun hadn't melted things, but mainly the roads were dry. This is why I found it a little odd that on the downslope, just after the summit, all traffic came to a standstill. Oddly, where my car ended up in the line, I had excellent cell service and so I called my mom to let her know I would be later than planned and not to worry. She then took the liberty of finding out what was holding up traffic.
Here is the answer. Just terrible. I was not too far away from the crash site so I was only stranded up there for about an hour. I've never seen so many delayed cars but the saddest part was that as I drove by, I could see the uninjured people sitting in the back of an open SUV, and they were smiling, even as a body lay covered in a tarp just a few yards away...
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Cops Gone Wild
Seriously. What was this guy thinking? I tried to post the youtube but it isn't working right now. We will see if it comes back up.
I hope he gets fired.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
If I Were A _______, I Would...
If I were a flower, I would be a Cosmo.
If I were a lawyer, I would be like Alan Shore from Boston Legal.
If I were a bird, I would purposely fly into people's heads.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Cute Rats
These shoes are a tribute to the year of the rat.
I'll admit that I find them alluring in a cute way, but I don't know that if I had them I would actually wear them.
The Happy Drunk
I, apparently, am the happy drunk. :)
(Too bad, after I am the happy drunk, I become the sad, talks-too-much drunk. You win some, you loose some.)
(Too bad, after I am the happy drunk, I become the sad, talks-too-much drunk. You win some, you loose some.)
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Ladies, The Answer Is Here
Does your fear of being raped prevent you from living life to its fullest?
Are you afraid that anything male will attack you at any moment?
Do you feel like getting revenge on a greedy lover?
Look no further.
Are you afraid that anything male will attack you at any moment?
Do you feel like getting revenge on a greedy lover?
Look no further.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Compliments To....Me!
There is little better from a job-execution standpoint than having the CEO of your entire company tell you that among your peers, you have done the best job he has seen.
That's right. The CEO himself was at my work today and said "this is the best stockroom I've seen."
Among that comment, the VP of Operations also told me, essentially, that he likes what we have done with the place.
I think the entire group was impressed. They told me I get a gold star. I haven't actually seen a gold star yet, though this did just happen today. I will endeavor to keep you all posted on what potential developments may follow.
That's right. The CEO himself was at my work today and said "this is the best stockroom I've seen."
Among that comment, the VP of Operations also told me, essentially, that he likes what we have done with the place.
I think the entire group was impressed. They told me I get a gold star. I haven't actually seen a gold star yet, though this did just happen today. I will endeavor to keep you all posted on what potential developments may follow.
Voting
I hate hearing people say "voting for so-and-so is just throwing your vote away," or "I would vote for so-and-so if he had any chance of winning."
Imagine if everyone voted for the person they thought was right? Then truly ANYone could have a real shot at the White House. If everyone voted for the person they really wanted, we would probably stand a better chance of getting someone in the Oval Office who:
a) deserves to be there based on merit
b) might actually make a change
What has this freedom to vote come to when voters live on the premise that they must vote for someone they perceive to stand a higher chance than someone who would actually be a good president...
Ugh.
Imagine if everyone voted for the person they thought was right? Then truly ANYone could have a real shot at the White House. If everyone voted for the person they really wanted, we would probably stand a better chance of getting someone in the Oval Office who:
a) deserves to be there based on merit
b) might actually make a change
What has this freedom to vote come to when voters live on the premise that they must vote for someone they perceive to stand a higher chance than someone who would actually be a good president...
Ugh.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
ANTM New Season
Watching America's Next Top Model is usually fun.
I have to say that the recaps are not particularly interesting.
Does anyone else think Janice Dickenson is both evil and not especially pretty? I mean, she may have been at one point---perhaps before plastic surgery...but wow.
I have to say that the recaps are not particularly interesting.
Does anyone else think Janice Dickenson is both evil and not especially pretty? I mean, she may have been at one point---perhaps before plastic surgery...but wow.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Pretty Unsettling
Last night, after dinner, my sister and her friend and I all decided to go to dessert at this little bakery place in North Portland.
Everything was normal until we saw several police cars driving the wrong direction up Williams St. When we left we saw probably ten police cars and a few ambulances about two blocks up from where we were. We had no idea what it was but we didn't want to find out.
Then I found this, this, and this.
Scary. That's why I don't hang out there very often.
Everything was normal until we saw several police cars driving the wrong direction up Williams St. When we left we saw probably ten police cars and a few ambulances about two blocks up from where we were. We had no idea what it was but we didn't want to find out.
Then I found this, this, and this.
Scary. That's why I don't hang out there very often.
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